I wish you loved me sober, the way you love me drunk. The way you look at me, the way you touch me, the sweet way you speak. I want to savor it, to keep it in a place for only me-and you-the invincible us.
Yet, I can't because I know when the sun rises, the words will cease. The looks lose their wonderment. The i love yous no longer roll off your tongue. The same words- just hours before- beamed in the eyes I try so hard not to lose myself in but fail miserably. Every time.
The smell of alcohol and cigarettes on your breath draws me in closer. My heart races, my hands eagerly await the feel of your naked skin underneath them, to hold you close while you catch your breath...when you pause to take in my smile, to let yourself wander wildly in my eyes, to see a future where your heart isn't afraid. The simple moment where I can feel how much you love me by the way your smile starts in one corner and spreads like wildfire, across the entire mouth that I fantasize about kissing.
If you could only understand how much I love you, how badly I want to be...to be only yours and your only one, to be the one you're proud of, the one you're madly in love with. To be the one that you know you're safe with.
As the sun takes her place, the curtains fall back around your heart so only you can see the light.
I wish you loved me sober, the way you love me drunk.
